terrypurple73 | (no subject)

Let me just give a little explanation of why last August was not the best month I'd ever had: We moved. I got broken up with. Peter died. All in three weeks. Sure there were fun things, like going home for Mana's shower and going to Omaha for Jen and Codak's wedding. But those bad things lingered, and I spent some time this July thinking about how to make this August better than last. I thought about doing some SOA activism for Peter. I thought about having some really good times with the roomies instead of packing and moving. I thought about getting a massage, since that's what I did right after Christian and I broke up.
I think what I'm learning though, is that making choices to do certain things doesn't actually make things better from last year. I wanted to go out of my way to do these things, to remind myself that Augusts can go better, and I can take control of them. But it hasn't worked. Part of it maybe is that I didn't motivate myself, so I haven't actually gotten a massage or written letters about the SOA. But as the month has gone on, I just haven't felt motivated- my gut seemed to be telling me that the things I was thinking of weren't really going to be as healing as I hoped.
It turns out, as always, it is the relationships in my life that bring me the healing and fullness that I need. Relationships are enhanced this month by visitors- first, I went home for a long weekend. And the last three weeks of this month have brought/are bringing SHANNON-MAUREEN-CAITLIN-MY WIFE-MANA FOR HER BIRTHDAY.
Do you people even know how great this is? What a great August- without my planning.