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[terrypurple73]

As I held Kali, who's a year old, in my arms this morning, she nuzzled her head into my shoulder and wrapped her arms around my neck, and I breathed deep to keep out the tears as I realized that was exactly what I'd been needing. It felt like I was holding a sigh of relief in my arms....
I was thinking the other day (and I've thought about this several times) about how someday, maybe in a couple years, I'll probably be going to Maura and Ryan's wedding, and how on earth do I prepare for that? How happy do I get, and how happy do I show I am if/when this happens? Their relationship is that serious, it's seemed. I mean, what would you rather walk in on the guy you were a little in love with doing with his girlfriend- would you rather catch them making out, or praying? And the answer is making out, because praying together means something muy serioso, as we used to say at SOP. They had an all-day date on Sunday, which was important for them. They got engaged. And will likely get married in August.
And I really am happy for them. How can you not be happy for people who are so happy, who are so good together, who know in their hearts that this is the person they want to spend the rest of their life with? I mean, I don't know how to not be happy for that.
On the other hand, I certainly didn't ask (because I don't think I really care to know) how he proposed. And I still cried as I fell asleep last night after I found out.

Comments

[manabanana.livejournal.com]

omygoodness! I knew when we were talking about the prayer thing that you knew it was serious, but i didn't get the vibe it was THAT serious.

i'm always here to talk, if you need.

boys are so dumb. i really will beat him up for breaking your heart.

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

It's not so much that he did the breaking of it, at least not knowlingly. It's I guess the fact that it still hurts.
It's not as if I was holding out hope that they would break up and I would get to be with him. But even if I wasn't holding out for that, it still doesn't feel real good.

boys are stupid, throw rocks at them

[beekyinchair.livejournal.com]

When someone unknowingly hurts you, it hurts even worse. Because then you can't even muster up any anger to mask the pain. Because why would you be angry at someone who is a good person? Whenever I say that I wasn't holding out hope, it usually means that I did have hope and I was just hiding it. Hope hurts. And yet it's so great. Like life I suppose.

It hurts to even think about someone you care about being with someone else. Trust me, I know. But I admire your ability to live with it. I don't know that I'd have that strength. My imagination can be painful enough, it must take a lot of energy to deal with reality. You're fantastic.

Love you, hate you, miss you and I'm looking forward to seeing you in March.
~Victoria

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

But thank you for being here for me. I'll probably call you in the next couple days.
love you.

[whoiskatie.livejournal.com]

I'm with Mana. Boys are dumb. And it sucks when your heart hurts. I'm glad you got a hug with a cute baby. I'm glad I got to talk to you the other day. Call if you'd like.

[jylllynn.livejournal.com]

A quick hug from Mpls! (I'm off to a meeting, big surprise). I'll try to call this weekend...

[sistermargareta.livejournal.com]

I can't phrase a reply better than what already was stated, but . You're right you know; you're happy for them for all of those reasons and because that's a big part of who you are...someone who rejoices in the blessings of others. Yet, the tears are important too. It's been awhile since we discussed living the fourth - call me when you get a chance? Or I'll try to call you soon. :)

[peachnettie.livejournal.com]

He's a shit. She's a meany-head. I know you're a sweet, forgiving person and you can't say that, but I'm not, and it needed to be said.
Terry, I am soooooooo sorry. I wish there was something I could say to help, but I don't think there is. Stay strong.

Smile?

[whoiskatie.livejournal.com]

So, I know that life is kind of sucky right now. Definitely. But perhaps this picture will cheer you up.

http://puffin.creighton.edu/clc/Faculty_page/Fac_Photos_Grc_Itly/WS-Acropolis-cats.jpg

I wish I knew how to do hotlinks in comments, but, I don't. So you'll have to copy and paste. But look. And then guess who took the picture. And then laugh.

I miss you. :)

Re: Smile?

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

Are those civet cats?

Re: Smile?

[whoiskatie.livejournal.com]

Close. They're feral cats. :) Now, doesn't that make you smile, at least a little? :)

[sop3218.livejournal.com]

T, I'm so sorry that you're hurting. I'm trying to wave a magical wand so you will feel better, but it doesn't seem to be reaching to Denver.

When's a good time to reach you? I've tried calling over the last couple of weeks and no one ever answers the phone. grr

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

Weekends are good times, especially since evenings aren't so available for me. (I work M, T, and W nights, and Thursdays I'm starting to go to a CLC/reflection group with E SCHLIE.)
Anyways, it is nice to hear from you, and nicer still to know you've been tryign to reach me.
love you,
~T-Dawg

[eowyn142.livejournal.com]

Hey beautiful! I wanted to call you today but alas the only number I have for you is the number from CVV! Send me your number via e-mail! Ksimmons@creighton.edu

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

Hello Beautiful, yourself!

303.832.7415
That's home.
I'd give you my pocket phone number, but I left my phone in my car.
I'd love to hear from you!!

Is this for real the most recent entry I posted? Good lord... I owe some updates!

love,
~Terry