From yesterday....
Sep. 6th, 2005 02:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terrypurple73It's good for me to be in the mountains- we're at Mt. Falcon, me, Nicky, Kevin, Maura, and Lisa, who's in town for the weekend. In a very basic sense, being in the mountains reminds me that there's more to me in this world. That's important to realize, especially when I rarely leave the house for places besides the library, the grocery store, or the Worker. And it's important today, because I need to remember that I'm not the only person who feels displaced in aspects of her life.
Our landlord, Frank, sent a man over this morning to meet with us. Frank had mentioned to us that his financial situation isn't going very well, and he would likely have to turn over the property managing to someone else. So when this man, Ted, set up a meeting with us, we assumed he would be the new guy to call when things broke. Turns out, he's a real estate man, and Frank needs to "liquidate some assets." Turns out, that's code for "selling the house you guys live in would really really help, even though it could suck for you, and even though you have a lease." We have the right, of course, to stick with the lease and stay until August. Or, we have the option to help out Frank and let him put our house on the Market. Ted said they'll try to find someone to buy it who would keep it as a rental property, so we could stay. That would be ideal. But someone could buy it and want to move in, in which case Frank and Ted would apparently help us find another place and help us move. (Also, we're hard to house- five of us and a dog, in this neighborhood, and for reasonable rent!) It just stinks, all around. I help in the tears while we were meeting, but once Ted left, I let them flow. I don't want to move. I just pictured us staying in this house for a couple years, and that's clearly not going to happen. I just wanted some physical stability for a while in my life- jobs and homes that don't have an end date to them. If the house goes on the market, that just puts us in limbo- we have no idea when/if it would sell, so we're there not indefinitely, but until an unknown time. I wanted a constant. Isn't that what a home is suppose to provide- a constant? Maura made a good point- a really good point- that Community is the constant, the stabilizer. That makes a lot of sense to me. It doesn't stop me from crying my eyes out about this whole situation, though. I'm not looking to settle down, I just want something to last. Being in the mountains helps me remember that I'm not the only one in limbo, displaced in where I live. Plenty of my dear friends- my closest- are going through similar times, not knowing what their upcoming living situation will look like; Mana, Vicky, Shannon, KP, William, and Cait are all in transitions like this. I want everyone to have a Community, a family, that supports them through stress.
Bill Jaster would remind me that this is a form of solidarity with those I serve- those who much more literally don't know where they will be living.
Maura says we all need to pray about this, and I know she's right. I really value how that is an important part of this to all of us.
Our landlord, Frank, sent a man over this morning to meet with us. Frank had mentioned to us that his financial situation isn't going very well, and he would likely have to turn over the property managing to someone else. So when this man, Ted, set up a meeting with us, we assumed he would be the new guy to call when things broke. Turns out, he's a real estate man, and Frank needs to "liquidate some assets." Turns out, that's code for "selling the house you guys live in would really really help, even though it could suck for you, and even though you have a lease." We have the right, of course, to stick with the lease and stay until August. Or, we have the option to help out Frank and let him put our house on the Market. Ted said they'll try to find someone to buy it who would keep it as a rental property, so we could stay. That would be ideal. But someone could buy it and want to move in, in which case Frank and Ted would apparently help us find another place and help us move. (Also, we're hard to house- five of us and a dog, in this neighborhood, and for reasonable rent!) It just stinks, all around. I help in the tears while we were meeting, but once Ted left, I let them flow. I don't want to move. I just pictured us staying in this house for a couple years, and that's clearly not going to happen. I just wanted some physical stability for a while in my life- jobs and homes that don't have an end date to them. If the house goes on the market, that just puts us in limbo- we have no idea when/if it would sell, so we're there not indefinitely, but until an unknown time. I wanted a constant. Isn't that what a home is suppose to provide- a constant? Maura made a good point- a really good point- that Community is the constant, the stabilizer. That makes a lot of sense to me. It doesn't stop me from crying my eyes out about this whole situation, though. I'm not looking to settle down, I just want something to last. Being in the mountains helps me remember that I'm not the only one in limbo, displaced in where I live. Plenty of my dear friends- my closest- are going through similar times, not knowing what their upcoming living situation will look like; Mana, Vicky, Shannon, KP, William, and Cait are all in transitions like this. I want everyone to have a Community, a family, that supports them through stress.
Bill Jaster would remind me that this is a form of solidarity with those I serve- those who much more literally don't know where they will be living.
Maura says we all need to pray about this, and I know she's right. I really value how that is an important part of this to all of us.
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Date: 2005-09-08 02:29 pm (UTC)Anyway, I hope everything works out and you get to keep your house. You're in my prayers and I'll call you soon!
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Date: 2005-09-09 09:45 pm (UTC)Take the unpacking thing slowly- there are so many other more important things to do! :)
You're in my prayers too.
love you lots,
~Theresa