terrypurple73 | (no subject)

I talked to Bill, and after we established that he had been trying to pretend nothing had ever happened, now we've talked about it, and so we are NOW going to pretend that it never happened.
I don't know if I just said a sentence. But I'm really glad I talked to him. Now it is over and done with and I will find a new crush. He was very very nice about it, had not wanted to hurt my feelings, had been afraid I would take it personally, and had been very, very surprised that I'd asked him in the first place. Etc. And we talked about other things too, and it's okay. I started out the whole conversation by saying, "I'm way more disappointed that you never got back to me than I am that your answer is probably no." He was really very nice about the whole thing, though I think it's pretty clear that if I hadn't initiated THIS conversation, he certainly wouldn't have. Oh well.... I do still wish we could go on a date. Even Colin agreed that one date with me would not be torturous for someone. But Bill is not interested. I guess not dating me can't be too torturous, either. Maybe it's back to the idea of choosing between something good and something else good. So now I can't be disappointed, because Bill chose something good. And so did I, by initiating this whole thing in the first place.