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Jan. 23rd, 2004 11:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terrypurple73Yesterday was a long day, full of meetings and duties and getting ready to go to Kansas City for the weekend. By the time I got home at about 12:15, I was beat, ready to crawl right into bed. Katie and I talked for a bit, and then I really did crawl under my covers. That lasted all of three minutes, because I realized there was no way I'd be able to fall asleep with my mind racing around. So I got back up, and Katie and I ended up talking until almost two in the morning, and it was SO nice. She had some great insights about what's been going on in my life.
I told her I've been feeling off lately, the past few days, and I've been feeling like everyone else has been off, too. And Katie said that she thinks I feel this way in a large part because I haven't been around the Community as much lately. It's true that I haven't been. What with the APO conference, and then my parents in town, and enough other meetings and things to keep me busy and out of the house, I've hardly been around. And I've felt that, I just hadn't put two and two together to think that my offness in the Community was because I hadn't been around as much. (Not that I'll be around this weekend either, though. I'm going straight from practicum today to campus for the SWK department fun trip to KC. When I come back, I'll play with Vicky, and by the time we're done, it will have hit Sunday.) I've been feeling isolated, and I don't feel that often. You can tell how isolated I've been feeling if you knew that of the last five or something journals I've written here, four have been blocked completely, just for me to see. Maybe I'm just trying to sort things out on my own, I guess. I don't like this isolated feeling. There has been a lot going on for me that isn't connected entirely to housemates. Weird boy situations, things at practicum, just funny feelings about a lot of things. And Katie just understood things last night, which is what I needed. Sometimes I forget that my KP knows me really well, and really knows how I operate.
I told her I've been feeling off lately, the past few days, and I've been feeling like everyone else has been off, too. And Katie said that she thinks I feel this way in a large part because I haven't been around the Community as much lately. It's true that I haven't been. What with the APO conference, and then my parents in town, and enough other meetings and things to keep me busy and out of the house, I've hardly been around. And I've felt that, I just hadn't put two and two together to think that my offness in the Community was because I hadn't been around as much. (Not that I'll be around this weekend either, though. I'm going straight from practicum today to campus for the SWK department fun trip to KC. When I come back, I'll play with Vicky, and by the time we're done, it will have hit Sunday.) I've been feeling isolated, and I don't feel that often. You can tell how isolated I've been feeling if you knew that of the last five or something journals I've written here, four have been blocked completely, just for me to see. Maybe I'm just trying to sort things out on my own, I guess. I don't like this isolated feeling. There has been a lot going on for me that isn't connected entirely to housemates. Weird boy situations, things at practicum, just funny feelings about a lot of things. And Katie just understood things last night, which is what I needed. Sometimes I forget that my KP knows me really well, and really knows how I operate.
