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Jan. 1st, 2004 03:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terrypurple73I’d forgotten how awesome Steehler is. I love his sense of humor and his sarcasm, and I really liked just talking with him one on one. I like the feeling that I am already on a similar page with someone because they understand the facts that come with going to a Catholic university. I’ve had good connections with other Jesuit school students as well when I’ve met them at conferences and whatnot; they just understand where I’m coming from in area that I hadn’t even thought of and can’t really name. Steehler was good to just have conversations with, whether about college and future plans, or about community-style living, or seminary things, or whatever. I’d just forgotten how much I enjoy his company, having not seen him before tonight in probably nearly three years.
I really enjoyed myself tonight. The get-together was small, but good. It had its lulls, but it never felt boring to me, or mundane. It didn’t feel “high school;” it felt like friends hanging out. Eating a lot and playing games and talking about a little of everything- it was a good time. I had been all worried or whatever that this New Year’s couldn’t live up to last year’s time in New Orleans. But once I quit worrying about it, quit trying to compare two totally different experiences, I relaxed a lot more. My family room does not have to compete with Bourbon Street.
KP has been here for the past few days, and it’s been great. I told her last night that since she’s been here, break hasn’t felt nearly as rushed as it had been. I’m not saying anything that means time drags or something- not at all. It just feels more livable to have someone here who lets me totally relax and not worry about things. I don’t have this dread that I have have have to work on my applications or anything like that. We’ve just really been able to slow down and enjoy each other’s company quite a bit. Without the day-to-day pressures of school and some of the Community stuff, we’ve been able to have really nice talks, about a lot more than day-to-day things. Not that we don’t have these when we’re in Omaha, but.... Last night we saw “Peter Pan,” and then we stayed up talking and talking and analyzing it for hours. Talking about the dimensions of the characters, what it means to grow up, the sexualities of certain characters, the use of the Indians, just the dynamics of how things played out. It felt good to be analyzing something I wanted to analyze. The movie left us wanting to talk about it, to hash it out, to dig deeper into it. I’d missed that feeling. That hasn’t happened about a production or a piece of literature in ages for me, and I’d forgotten how good it feels to grab onto a piece and poke at it, to wrestle with it, to try to understand and to appreciate how it works.
It’s also been really good for Katie and I to have some bonding time. Life had been stressful at the house the past few weeks, and I was feeling awfully tense, quite a bit. So having time that’s only for us has been good to restart ourselves.
Today we hung out with Our Boys, which was also good and needed. I’d seen Neal and Jeff for probably a half hour each since summer, and our whole Little House hadn’t been all together since I moved out in May. Man, I love those guys. Katie, Neal, and I ate lunch together, and even if it wasn’t super in-depth, I love that I’m feeling at least up to date on Neal’s life. He means so much to me. And Jeffrey too- I like just being in their company again. We picked Jeff up at the bus station and then had dinner and hung out, all of us and Jason Beste. I liked being back together, updating, reminiscing, and just being. It really is important. And I’ve said it before, but I don’t think I can easily go from living with someone for a year to not living with them. That isn’t a smooth transition for me.
Katie said something interesting last night. I was talking about the Community, wondering how people will keep in touch next year, especially since I have not kept in very good contact this year with people from last year. Only regularly with Rosie, and only since she lives three blocks away. And Katie made a good point, something I hadn’t realized. She said that even though I cared about Community a ton last year and got along with everyone, this year I have had much closer friendships with individuals. I think that’s really true. I loved everyone last year, that’s for sure, and I was close with people, but not like I am this year. I have stronger connections to individuals, and that’s strengthened Community for me in a different way.
I really enjoyed myself tonight. The get-together was small, but good. It had its lulls, but it never felt boring to me, or mundane. It didn’t feel “high school;” it felt like friends hanging out. Eating a lot and playing games and talking about a little of everything- it was a good time. I had been all worried or whatever that this New Year’s couldn’t live up to last year’s time in New Orleans. But once I quit worrying about it, quit trying to compare two totally different experiences, I relaxed a lot more. My family room does not have to compete with Bourbon Street.
KP has been here for the past few days, and it’s been great. I told her last night that since she’s been here, break hasn’t felt nearly as rushed as it had been. I’m not saying anything that means time drags or something- not at all. It just feels more livable to have someone here who lets me totally relax and not worry about things. I don’t have this dread that I have have have to work on my applications or anything like that. We’ve just really been able to slow down and enjoy each other’s company quite a bit. Without the day-to-day pressures of school and some of the Community stuff, we’ve been able to have really nice talks, about a lot more than day-to-day things. Not that we don’t have these when we’re in Omaha, but.... Last night we saw “Peter Pan,” and then we stayed up talking and talking and analyzing it for hours. Talking about the dimensions of the characters, what it means to grow up, the sexualities of certain characters, the use of the Indians, just the dynamics of how things played out. It felt good to be analyzing something I wanted to analyze. The movie left us wanting to talk about it, to hash it out, to dig deeper into it. I’d missed that feeling. That hasn’t happened about a production or a piece of literature in ages for me, and I’d forgotten how good it feels to grab onto a piece and poke at it, to wrestle with it, to try to understand and to appreciate how it works.
It’s also been really good for Katie and I to have some bonding time. Life had been stressful at the house the past few weeks, and I was feeling awfully tense, quite a bit. So having time that’s only for us has been good to restart ourselves.
Today we hung out with Our Boys, which was also good and needed. I’d seen Neal and Jeff for probably a half hour each since summer, and our whole Little House hadn’t been all together since I moved out in May. Man, I love those guys. Katie, Neal, and I ate lunch together, and even if it wasn’t super in-depth, I love that I’m feeling at least up to date on Neal’s life. He means so much to me. And Jeffrey too- I like just being in their company again. We picked Jeff up at the bus station and then had dinner and hung out, all of us and Jason Beste. I liked being back together, updating, reminiscing, and just being. It really is important. And I’ve said it before, but I don’t think I can easily go from living with someone for a year to not living with them. That isn’t a smooth transition for me.
Katie said something interesting last night. I was talking about the Community, wondering how people will keep in touch next year, especially since I have not kept in very good contact this year with people from last year. Only regularly with Rosie, and only since she lives three blocks away. And Katie made a good point, something I hadn’t realized. She said that even though I cared about Community a ton last year and got along with everyone, this year I have had much closer friendships with individuals. I think that’s really true. I loved everyone last year, that’s for sure, and I was close with people, but not like I am this year. I have stronger connections to individuals, and that’s strengthened Community for me in a different way.
