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[terrypurple73]

Thirty-five hours from now, I will have landed in Omaha. I am abnormally excited about this. I hope I’m not just building it up or something. But I’m really pumped to go. I talked to Vicky, on the phone for a while last night, and that made me happy. We did a bit of that trip-arranging stuff, but mostly not, just talking and updating. Then I called Community (I hadn’t told them yet that I am coming, and I had learned that I would be needing a ride from the airport), and that thrilled me too. Mei Li answered, and after chatting with her, when we were about to hang up, KP and Kat and crew came home, so I talked to those two as well. More happiness! One of the first things Kat said when she got on the phone was, “You need to come home!” So I said, “How about Friday?” :) And we laughed; and I am excited to see people. In addition to all that fun, I’ve had long online chats with Bana the past two nights. It’s been so good to be able to talk with her on a really regular basis- either online or on the phone. But I still miss being able to be with her, just to spend time together. (And of course I finished the tearjerker book last night, which made me sob and miss my best friend.) But! Thirty-five hours until I am in Omaha! Hooray!
I am feeling restless tonight. All I have done is sit in my room, mostly at the computer. Which isn’t altogether bad, and it was basically by choice, it’s just not terribley exciting. Maybe I need to find something else to read- besides a million of my old journals and emails, I mean! There is more to be said, but I don’t know what it is. I need something to spark me, and then it will start to come out, I’m sure.
Also, on a general summer note, I’m starting to get pissed at the fact that Pickle apparently doesn’t want to see me at all. Still. I guess I just feel powerless to do anything about it, and I just wish.... I don’t know what I wish. I wish I could see him, I wish we could be friends, or just friendly, again, I wish it didn’t hurt that he wants nothing to do with me.

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[beekyinchair.livejournal.com]

Oh, how I've wished so many of those wishes in the last year or so. Just remember the hundreds of people who do want to be around you though (including me!) cuz that always helps. It also helps if you remember that most men are stupid.