Again, I am not an immortal rockstar!
May. 29th, 2003 12:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terrypurple73I just got back from bringing Shannon home after our newly started weekly dates. My mother asked me at dinner tonight, when I mentioned it, where Shannon and I were going on our date. I told her probably my house or hers- very eventful! :) But we chatted it up for over three hours, and it was good, like always. In addition to comparing the divinity and humanity of both Medea and Christ (a topic that stemmed actually very clearly from discussions of expectations of women and men in society and how we express rage), we also asked the very important question of, “Who wouldn’t like Catcher in the Rye or Dead Poets Society?” Apparently, some people don’t. But anyways.... We talked for a while about different kinds of relationships. And we questioned about our own readinesses (is that a word?) when it comes to relationships? Am I too independent to be in a relationship? Am I just too stubborn? Am I too immature? Or am I just not ready right now, not aware enough of who I am, not formed enough? Sometimes these seem hard to distinguish between.
My time at home has been really good so far. I have been acting like a social butterfly, though I don’t feel like one, or like I should be one. I’ve spent two evenings with Shannon, one evening with Jenn, and another with Jenn and Kari together. All with me only having been home just over a week. But things have been good. I literally spent nearly all of last week in the house, by myself, completely vegging. (And loving the my immune system held strong until I got home. Stomach thing made its way somewhere else, while some cold/allergy thing took its place during a transition period.) I watched more TV in four days than I did all semester, but I didn’t mind much. I just slept a lot. And missed my friends in Omaha. I’ve been able to talk to Mana pretty regularly, which has been awesome. Even when we just talk silly things, I love it. I love knowing that even if she can’t be just a few miles away from me, she is still accessible without long-distance charges! But mostly, she’s important to have because she understands everything, the important things and the not-as-important things.
I’ve talked with Victoria some online, and it’s just nowhere near as good as talking with her in person. I still don’t know why she isn’t in Minnesota, but I know that I will see her soon. Internet chats with her just aren’t the same. I can’t express the whining voice I use when I tell her how much I hate her. And I can’t kick her (to show my affection, right Vicky?) It’s awfully difficult. But I will hug her soon, in a few weeks, and we will be all happy. And then I will not take her to a bar to pick up guys. Unless she really wants to. :)
KP called me the other night, and it was fun to catch up with her. It’s so funny how I live when I am not in community. Even when I do live there, so so many of my actions seem to be done in the context of community, with the community in mind. And that seems to be transferring to things here. I am constantly aware of how many roommates I have- or, how many I had just a few weeks ago. And I am aware about the recycling, and about the lack of composting, and about the way I keep house, and about the way I microwave things. And I brush my teeth a lot more often, thankyousomuchKatieParkinson! :)
This has not been as insightful as I wanted it to be, but maybe another time.
My time at home has been really good so far. I have been acting like a social butterfly, though I don’t feel like one, or like I should be one. I’ve spent two evenings with Shannon, one evening with Jenn, and another with Jenn and Kari together. All with me only having been home just over a week. But things have been good. I literally spent nearly all of last week in the house, by myself, completely vegging. (And loving the my immune system held strong until I got home. Stomach thing made its way somewhere else, while some cold/allergy thing took its place during a transition period.) I watched more TV in four days than I did all semester, but I didn’t mind much. I just slept a lot. And missed my friends in Omaha. I’ve been able to talk to Mana pretty regularly, which has been awesome. Even when we just talk silly things, I love it. I love knowing that even if she can’t be just a few miles away from me, she is still accessible without long-distance charges! But mostly, she’s important to have because she understands everything, the important things and the not-as-important things.
I’ve talked with Victoria some online, and it’s just nowhere near as good as talking with her in person. I still don’t know why she isn’t in Minnesota, but I know that I will see her soon. Internet chats with her just aren’t the same. I can’t express the whining voice I use when I tell her how much I hate her. And I can’t kick her (to show my affection, right Vicky?) It’s awfully difficult. But I will hug her soon, in a few weeks, and we will be all happy. And then I will not take her to a bar to pick up guys. Unless she really wants to. :)
KP called me the other night, and it was fun to catch up with her. It’s so funny how I live when I am not in community. Even when I do live there, so so many of my actions seem to be done in the context of community, with the community in mind. And that seems to be transferring to things here. I am constantly aware of how many roommates I have- or, how many I had just a few weeks ago. And I am aware about the recycling, and about the lack of composting, and about the way I keep house, and about the way I microwave things. And I brush my teeth a lot more often, thankyousomuchKatieParkinson! :)
This has not been as insightful as I wanted it to be, but maybe another time.
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Date: 2003-05-29 08:02 am (UTC)~Victoria
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