parts of an email i sent to khodai that sums up some thoughts on last week

[terrypurple73]

Life is picking up here (as if it wasn't before), and it is keeping me kind of crazy. Rob (the infamous ROB) came to visit us in Omaha last week, and that made things pretty interesting. Not only was his presence throwing things off, there were added things to think about: Rob leaves for the Marines in a week, and he had come down to see us and some other friends from Iowa before he left for boot camp. So his being down here got me thinking some more about his decision to join, and it left me struggling a lot. While I wanted to support him in his decision, I also knew that I didn't support what he was going to be a part of. And it made me think of you and how you struggled with this decision last year, and it made me so, SO glad that you didn't join. It was a challenge for me to combine my convictions to non-violence with Rob, who will be preparing to go into combat. He seemed so ambivalent about the entire combat aspect, or else he was just hiding his excitement/major emotions from me. I just don't understand. I guess part of my struggle was a feeling of powerlessness- his decision had been made, and Rob isn't someone I can always dialog with like that. Mostly, I am unsure of how to support my friend. And I am glad you didn't join the Marines last year, because I don't know how I would have handled that. And I'm REALLY glad you considered talking with me about your decision. Not that I expected Rob to or anything, but.... I really appreciate that you did.

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Another also.... (insert a bit of Theresa's anxiety here) If I like a boy who I am sort of friends with but only see once a week at a meeting and I have no idea if he likes me but I sort of want to ask him out anyways... (take a breath!) Do you think I should just buck up and ask him or be my usual chicken in this matter and just wait until I know more things and by the way I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO ASK SOMEONE OUT, and.... advice?

Comments

RAR

[manabanana.livejournal.com]

you can practice on me baby! lolol

Re: RAR

[demonbaby19.livejournal.com]

I say go for it and ask him out, although if I were in that position I would probably be too chicken. Still, what's the worst that could happen? No day but today, right?

Re: RAR

[manabanana.livejournal.com]

you're so right shanno! i've been trying to say this for a week or two.. okay, but i couldn't really say anything until i asked my friend john out on a date last night. now i can bitch and moan.

Re: RAR

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

yes, but you had a reason- you needed a date for date party. i still think mine is a little different. but i'm thinking i might need a date to go to the "whose life is it anyway" play on saturday.... ?? :)

Re: RAR

[manabanana.livejournal.com]

i'm thinking you need a date to that too.

[whoiskatie.livejournal.com]

Deep breaths darlin, I love you :)