Starry eyes

[terrypurple73]

I’m really tired of always, always chasing after someone, and nothing ever happening from it. I chased Seth and lord knows who else freshman year, and then there was Abe last year. I’ve had my share of starry eyes over boys. And as great as the friendships I’ve formed with some people (like Seth and Michael) have been, they are not the same as a relationship. I have this horrible urge tonight to send Jack an email asking him if he’s free this weekend or next to go out. I sort of feel like if I just went and did something, then I would have it out of the way. I don’t feel like chasing right now. I want something to happen. So maybe I should just buck up, ask him out, even though I have no idea what his response would be. But I also think that I know I won’t. I don’t think that made sense. Part of me just feels like I wouldn’t be wasting my time if I just did something. And part of me wants to know that he’d say yes before I do anything. Typical, typical rantings, probably the same as every junior high and high school student feels. Part of me is still nervous that even if we were to go out on a date, I would have no idea how to act or what to say, because as neat-o as I think Jack is, his seemingly vast intelligence and intensity still intimidates me some. It’s been good to see his sense of humor recently at APO meetings- makes me feel calmer and less anxious.
Sometimes, Theresa is a big dork, but I just wanted to get things out there…. I’m off to bed now.

Comments

[clairdeluney.livejournal.com]

my dearest terry,
I must conclude that "getting it over with" always seems like the best option, except to your gut! If you ask him, at least you've done your part, and whether or not he says yes or no, the ball's in his court (sorry, I really hate that phrase but I had to use it).
Me, I'm on the second stage of this absolutely ridiculous game. We've been "out" together a couple of times, now what? To quote Scuttle from The Little Mermaid, "Nothing...is- HAP-PEN-ING!" I don't like this game anymore, I like him, but not the game. This is too silly to be happening. Well I gotta go think of something to keep the ball rolling.

Relationships. Too much work!

[whoiskatie.livejournal.com]

not silly, my darling...and it's not just jr. high and high school girls either...love ya and know that i empathize with you! KatieJ :)

yay spaghetti.

[manabanana.livejournal.com]

I can't remember if you're spaghetti and i'm meatballs or the other way around. i think you're meatballs, but anyway.. I'm thinking that you should ask him, because one of us needs to get this damn year of love on the right track.

Re: yay spaghetti.

[terrypurple73.livejournal.com]

This year of love DOES need to get itself off the ground.... I might ask him. Not yet though. We'll see if this gutsiness lasts. And you're spaghetti. And speaking of the year of love (or at least, speaking of dates), do you have a date to your date party yet? See you for dinner. Thanks for the encouragement!!