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terrypurple73Still homesick for Spirit of Peace.
Caitlin was in town this week, so after playing/remembering with her and Meghan (and talking to William for the first time in years), and after Colin's visit last month, plus visiting with KP, Neal, Jeffrey, and Valerie back in MN last month, I'm hardcore missing SOP. It's been said so many times before, but what we had there was amazing. We supported each other truly, and we lived out what we believed in. We had real relationships with each other, in every sense. I really think we loved each other, for better or for worse, through sickness and in health, until we parted ways.
It doesn't help that I've been starting to pack tonight. It's only books, and they're all coming with me (aside from the stack that I don't want), so it's not like it's a gut-wrenching process. But I feel torn between relief that I'm starting, and anxiety at the process of moving, and more anxiety about wondering how much will fit in our new place?
I think we have a new place, though. It's not final, since our application hasn't officially gone through, but we gave them a deposit and talked about signing the lease next week. It's about a mile or so north of where we are now- still relatively in the neighborhood. It's a tiny little house- the internet tells me it's about 500 square feet. It's got a huge yard, one bedroom, and hopefully enough space to fit all the crap we've accumulated. Otherwise, it's time to play the simplicity game and start giving away all my possessions. That's not too bad of a thing to do.
It's not even as if I'm leaving some amazing Community; this Community hasn't pulled its weight in any sense. We don't support each other, we don't communicate, and I don't think we even care that much or even like each other very much some days. I trust that living with Joe will be good. I don't think we'll have to transition too much- it usually feels like we live by ourselves anyway, for all the interacting this household does. It seems that we do live well together, and I'm excited to have a chance to really keep learning how we work together. I know it will be a challenge, but I know that it will be important and that it'll help bring us closer.
But I do wish I could move back in with the Spirit of Peace-ers, too. Those years formed amazing parts of me, and I wish I had that back, in all its tough times and its wonders.
Caitlin was in town this week, so after playing/remembering with her and Meghan (and talking to William for the first time in years), and after Colin's visit last month, plus visiting with KP, Neal, Jeffrey, and Valerie back in MN last month, I'm hardcore missing SOP. It's been said so many times before, but what we had there was amazing. We supported each other truly, and we lived out what we believed in. We had real relationships with each other, in every sense. I really think we loved each other, for better or for worse, through sickness and in health, until we parted ways.
It doesn't help that I've been starting to pack tonight. It's only books, and they're all coming with me (aside from the stack that I don't want), so it's not like it's a gut-wrenching process. But I feel torn between relief that I'm starting, and anxiety at the process of moving, and more anxiety about wondering how much will fit in our new place?
I think we have a new place, though. It's not final, since our application hasn't officially gone through, but we gave them a deposit and talked about signing the lease next week. It's about a mile or so north of where we are now- still relatively in the neighborhood. It's a tiny little house- the internet tells me it's about 500 square feet. It's got a huge yard, one bedroom, and hopefully enough space to fit all the crap we've accumulated. Otherwise, it's time to play the simplicity game and start giving away all my possessions. That's not too bad of a thing to do.
It's not even as if I'm leaving some amazing Community; this Community hasn't pulled its weight in any sense. We don't support each other, we don't communicate, and I don't think we even care that much or even like each other very much some days. I trust that living with Joe will be good. I don't think we'll have to transition too much- it usually feels like we live by ourselves anyway, for all the interacting this household does. It seems that we do live well together, and I'm excited to have a chance to really keep learning how we work together. I know it will be a challenge, but I know that it will be important and that it'll help bring us closer.
But I do wish I could move back in with the Spirit of Peace-ers, too. Those years formed amazing parts of me, and I wish I had that back, in all its tough times and its wonders.
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Date: 2011-09-11 12:55 am (UTC)Miss you!! I heard Will had a great time in Denver!
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Date: 2011-09-11 05:40 am (UTC)